Move/make: Week 10

Today's weight: 175.0 pounds.

Workouts (last week):
Monday: Off
Tuesday: Off (traveling)
Wednesday: Biked 10 miles
Thursday: Biked 10 miles
Friday: Off
Saturday: Swam 1 hour
Sunday: Off
 
Thoughts on food:
I was in Florida all last week for training. I stuck with my goal of going grocery shopping (although even that was expensive, probably because we were in Orlando, a stone's throw from Orlando Studios). Our group went out to dinner once -- I had beer (Yuengling!) and fish tacos. I'm impressed we didn't go out more often. The rest of the week I ate a lot of peanut butter, hummus, tuna salad, apples, cherry tomatoes, and Diet Coke. Maybe not totally balanced, but not entirely unhealthy, either. The Diet Coke has got to go, though.

Overall reflections: 
I didn't work out four days last week, but I did fit in three days of workouts while traveling, so I feel good about that. Working out on an exercise bike might be one of my least favorite things to do. It's so ... tedious. But I had my iPod, and lots of pent-up energy/frustration from long days of training, so it wasn't so bad. I will always choose working out outside, though, when I can.

On Saturday, our last night in Florida, we went to Cocoa Beach and swam at sunset. The sky was a beautiful lavender, the beach was fairly empty, and there weren't many boats in the ocean. I love seeing where the ocean meets the sky. I always feel like I'm on the edge of the earth. There is something about water that is soothing to me. It helped melt away a lot of the stress I'd been feeling. And it helped me make peace with my feelings about Florida. All of us drove back to the hotel feeling tired, but happy, I think. I love the ocean.

Like the week before, this week's workouts definitely helped keep me relatively sane. This job has been taking it out of me. I realized last night that I haven't had any down time for going on two months now. I went from wrapping up coursework, to turning in grades, to graduating, to diving headfirst into job training. I've had a day off here or there, but nothing substantial. Didn't even have a long weekend for Memorial Day. And my days off are mostly spent thinking about (or getting caught up on) all the other things I let slide during the busy part of the semester. I'm training this week until 7 p.m. each night, and I've spent many nights so far feeling depressed. Working out is helping me manage the anxiety I'm feeling (and there's a lot of it). I'm worried about money, the summer, my future, having no insurance. There are a lot of things weighing on me now.

Goals:
I feel really good that I stuck to my goals while traveling. This week (well, until Sunday, when I blog again), I want to:

• Go grocery shopping (I've had no food since I got home on Sunday ... I've been living on ramen and iced tea, which is not helping my crankiness. I need fresh fruit and vegetables!). 
• Work out three more times (in keeping with my more-days-on-than-off rule).
• Make at least two of those days weight-lifting days.
• Continue biking (I have a new bike, I sold my old one to recoup some costs, and I've set my sights on a 50-mile ride in July). 
• Call my doctor and make an appointment to look at my foot (I still haven't done this!). 

And, as always, get into the 160s by sometime this summer.  

As far as my mental health, goes, for now, I just have to take things a day at a time. I'm working on some other things (second jobs, etc.) that might make things a little better. For now, though, I'm stuck in this frustrating limbo.